Edit
I'm moving :3 Here! :3


My essay was going mad/weird/screwy/sad and now it's going into depression mode. D: Don't read on, I'm talking to myself.

"Then again, how was it possible that black eyes could glow in the dark? How could it be possible when darkness was just pure blackness, nothing but jet-black darkness which seemed to spread out over the entire universe; he couldn't see anything, nothing could see him. There was no degree as to how black that darkness could be, no percentage of blackness to tweak, change, measure, was there? If so, then why, why, why was it possible to see those eyes, and black eyes too, in that darkness he was engulfed in? How could black be seen in black? It was just impossible, wasn't it? It was, it just was, but he could see them, he could see those black eyes in that darkness around him." -> signs that I'm going mad because I could actually write something as mad as this out ._.

"At night, the moonlight would pour through the curtained window, his only source of illumination in the darkness around him, the darkness that seemed to start eating at him viciously as the night worn on. He stared at the moon, thankful he had a friend like Fred to light up that darkness around him, that darkness he so feared. Yes, he had named the moon Fred, and Fred was his bestest, bestest friend, because Fred lit up that darkness he had unknowingly and unwillingly plunged into; that darkness that was so deep, so empty, so dark. He was "light", after all, and Kanda was "dark"; he didn't belong in the darkness. But that was why they complimented each other perfectly, because light compliments dark, just like how white compliments black. They were like yin and yang; Kanda was the tiger from the ground, he was the dragon from the heavens. They balanced each other out, just like how there had to be evil in the world to balance out the good, how there had to be hell for heaven to exist. If not, the whole world would go into chaos, because the balance was gone.

When Kanda was still by his side, Kanda was that source of darkness he had to provide light for, to balance out the forces of light and dark, to ensure that their worlds would be stabilized. It was the reason for him to live. But now that Kanda was gone, he didn't know what to do, because he couldn't do anything anymore; he lost his reason for living, and his world went into a chaotic state." -> it's going weird and screwy. Idk the tiger and dragon thing was something I watched sometime ago so yeah I still need to do background research 'cos it sounds screwed and I need to finish my elaboration on yin and yang YES I'M FREAKIN' SCREWED BECAUSE I'M ACTUALLY DOING THAT. D:

"And he wished he could just sprout wings, beautiful, white, wings, or maybe, even black; he didn't mind anyway, because all he wanted to do was to fly away, far, far, away, away from it all. He wanted to escape it all, he wanted to escape from reality." -> it's going sad.

“And he would cut himself to make sure he could bleed, to make sure he could feel pain, and that alone would be proof that he was alive." -> IT'S GROWING SO FREAKIN' DREPRESSING.

I need to stop this. This. This. THIS.

...Need I mention I live on "and"s? *dies*

Moving to lj~ so I'll blog about flag day at lj XD;

So yesterday I went to Jurong Medical Centre opposite my home for an eye checkup. It was gross. First I had an eye checkup and the disinfectant she used to wipe the place to put your chin and lean your forehead against actually stung my eye so much it started to water -_- Then there was this look at the houses thing and then this wind blow at your eye thing. The wind blow eye thing was stupid and irritating D:

Anyway afterwards, the nurse had to put the eyedrops in my left eye three times because my eyelashes kept getting in the way and then my iris couldn't get diluted -idkhowtospell- or something D: plus the eyedrops were gross, they stung my eyes horribly grrr.

So afterwards, when the eyedrops finally worked, I was called back into the consultation room and the doctor was like "look to your left, and don't look into the light" and it was just so wtf because when he was checking left eye he shone the light from my left while I was looking at the left so the light was just glaring into my eyes I had nowhere else to look to. So I was just straining to stare somewhere where there was no light which was practically no where. And he did it 8 times so I had to look in 8 different directions. Times 2 eyes, it's sixteen. Grr.

So anyway apparently if I don't take care of my eyes the nerve will snap eventually. "It's not serious now, but in future it might happen. Maybe, maybe not." and I know that if that happens, I will go blind. Then I believe I will have to go for an operation but I don't know if it's a hundred percent successful operation D: And no, I don't want the jab for the anesthetic. D: So now I need to go back every year for annual checkups, and if I start seeing flashes I'm doomed. He said it's still okay if I see one or two, but it means the nerve is in danger of breaking, and if it's just on the verge of breaking I'll see flashes every ten seconds or something I can't really remember but wouldn't that be so irritating D: he showed me this video and I already found the flashing on the video irritating D:

The after effects of the eyedrops were gross, I was practically temporary blinded. When I went out of the centre it was bright and all, and I really couldn't open my eyes. I bet I would've walked into the path of a car if my mom wasn't with me D: Plus I couldn't see anything near me, so when I was smsing I couldn't see anything at all. I could only see stuff that were far away, and the after effect lasted until night time, so I was just stretching my arms and typing on my laptop a distance away -__-




NISHIJIMA DJFAOPWEHFA. His voice melts my brain into goooooooo. D:


JUST LOOK AT HIS EYELASHES.


AND HIS DORKINESS. :3!


And well, Nishijima. :3



OSAKA-JO HALL, where Kanjani8 Spirits!! Concert was held.
THE DEFINITION OF OMGLOVE.



XD;; BecauseEpisode11.5ismadeoflove. MAMOOOOO :3

Anyway today, I met Hazel and Haz to go Kino~ :3 Li Jun tagged along in the end XD; [edit] Hazel blogged so much and I blogged so little so yes, I'm feeling horrid. XD; so anyway! Neither Hazel nor I expected Kino to decide to bring in the NewS calendar, because the last three times I went to Kino, they didn't have it on the 2007 JE Calendars List BUT WELL ANYWAY Hazel ordered it though it was like 45.70 SO YAAAAY :3!! Then Haz couldn't decide whether to buy the magazine or Higurashi so we decided to flip a coin and the coin said MAGAZINE so Hazel bought the magazine for Haz as a birthday present. Haz was saying that I emit heat 'cos the coin was hot O: SSSHHH let's not tell Haz what I've decided to buy her as a birthday present *bricked* Look At Star 24 was gone, BUT I'D NEVER EXPECTED KINO TO BRING IN LOOK AT STAR. WHO KNOWS, ONE DAY THEY'LL BRING IN CAST PRIX. And I haven't seen Top Stage for ages already :/ [edit] anyway when we were going home, yes, we were fangirling on the MRT and I noticed this lady standing next to us. She was grinning throughout the whole journey at us, and when Hazel, Haz and Li Jun alighted the MRT at Jurong East, I suddenly said to Hazel "JITENSHA!" and we fangirled for that few seconds before they really had to alight and the lady was like smiling amusedly at me as she alighted after them OwO

Anyway, just now, I saw the advertisement for Ying2 Huo3 Cong2 De4 Meng4 for the first time and hot damn, they really used the opening of SAYONARA D:

Need I mention it's a fucking gross show?

HAAAAAZEEEL WAIT 'TIL YOU GET YOUR DVD(S) BACK 8D

I'M A UNIVERSITY STUDENT. 8D

Okay, fine ignore that.

Yesterday, during my lesson, Mr. Teo announced he would be giving spelling next week. Boy, was I very glad I knew hiragana already, firstly because I wouldn't need to study -that- hard, and secondly, because when he was writing out the vocabulary he would be testing next week, he wrote it in hiragana and then he explained the meaning. So it was like, because the other students didn't know hiragana, they had to look up to copy each character, and by the time they had finished, he had already explained the meaning of that word and had already written the next one, and had gone on to explaining.

Then when we had finally finished, and he was calling out names to tick against the register, I started chatting with the lady on my right. She's so cute, she covers her face with her papers to whisper to me about stuff. XD; Anyway we got this timetable thing, and she was like "AAA EXAMINATIONS I THOUGHT THERE WAS ONLY ONE AT THE END OF THE YEAR!!" So I was like "HAHAHA then it'd be quite pointless, wouldn't it." I was commenting that at least it doesn't clash with my school examinations, so I'm grateful, so she asked me when my examinations were and I told her February. Then she was like, "Ohh. What subjects are you studying?" So I told her BioChemGeog and she was like "*frownfrown* Ah." Then.


"Are you taking a diploma course?"


I almost burst out laughing when my brain analysed what she said. OMG I'M A UNIVERSITY STUDENT!!!!11!!1 HOMG WIN!!!! :3!


Anyway, this couple took the two seats beside me, so when the guy sitting two seats away from me entered the classroom, he halted immediately and his eyes kind of widened. XD; Poor thing, then he had to sit at the other end of the classroom and he was kind of blocked by other people. :/

And the couple beside me, omg either they're too good, or they don't freakin' care. Which would mean they're super rich. I mean, you pay how much to come here and learn, and yet you sit in class eating chocolates -when the rules and regulations on that piece of paper attached in front of the timetable said no food and drinks allowed in classrooms- and chatting and talking and telling each other how cute each other are, and just not listening and disturbing me with your pointless conversations. And therefore one point to make.

Wtf.

I hope they flunk their examinations. Well anyway, once you flunk one stipulated examination, you won't be able to be promoted to a higher course. And if you miss three lessons in a row, you'll be kicked out omg >_>

So anyway, need I mention Mr. Teo was called sadistic by some guy? :3 He was telling us that when someone scolds you in Japanese, every word can be as sharp as a knife, and it would cut you, causing the blood to trail out from the first cut. The second word would then cut you and the blood would trail out from the second cut, and so on. And he was doing actions on his arm X3


Anyway.

Happy birthday to Daiki!
Happy birthday to Paku Romi!

:3

...And I wonder if there're any seiyuus that share the same birthday as me.

BUT ANYWAY KANDA SHARES THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME, SO I'M VERY MUCH CONTENTED.

K. So today I finished watching Ima Ai. I've been so busy I haven't had the time to. And well, to cut everything short, Narimiya made my heart shatter into "a million, a billion, a gazillion crimson pieces." Yes I love quoting my Commonwealth essay, doesn't anyone know that? 8D *bricked*

Because Mio found out she would have to go back to the Akaibu star when the rainy season ends so she wanted to celebrate Christmas. Then Narimiya's character thought something was amiss but blahblahblah they had their christmas party and after it ended Narimiya went to keep the decorations and he opened that drawer and took out the picture book again and flipped to the page where it said "For when the rainy season ends, Mama will have to go back to the Akaibu Star" or something like that and he started crying and the tear dripped onto the "ki" of the "kisetsu" I think and then Mio was standing at the door and she saw him cry AND IT WAS ALL SO HEART WRENCHING D:

Ignore that, please.


So anyway, I started watching MPD Psycho while I was eating lunch. My dad was watching with me, and around five minutes or a little bit more into the first episode, they showed a woman who was dead, then there was a censor, and there was a phone and pink stuff. And I realised that the phone was in the guts, 'cos the woman's stomach got cut open and later on, they revealed that that killer cut open the stomachs of pregnant ladies about to deliver and take out the developed embryo. My dad didn't realise, so I just kept quiet.

Then afterwards there was this scene whereby the women were found dead, with their heads half cut open, revealing half of their brains and there was a flower was growing from the brain. And they called them human flowerpots. And as much as I love gore, when it came to this part, I really just lost my appetite because the concept of planting seeds in the brain so that they can grow into flowers kind of sickened me out.

So anyway, moving onto the next scene, where the police were holding a conference and then there was this officer who was very cute. He examined the dead bodies and made a miniature figurine of how all of the dead bodies were found like and the intricate details XD; No I don't believe he made it, but I think being able to make something so small with such intricate details is really cool and rad.

Then in the second episode, they had another scene whereby another pregnant lady was murdered and again, her stomach was cut open and the phone was in the guts. The only difference was that they made it clearer that it was guts and well, just the inside of the stomach and omgosh all the blood and everything.

Then the super cute guy, he made yet another model, and this time it had DETACHABLE PAAAAAAAAARTS~ XD So he was explaining that the abdomen gets cut off and then he removed the removable protruding stomach. He continued that the baby gets taken out, and he took out the super detailed miniature foetus -which was very cute as a clay piece I must add- and the officer was like "so detailed O:". Then he goes on to say that the phone gets put into the stomach and he picks up that mini telephone WHICH IS VERY CUTE AS WELL and stuffs it into the stomach and it fits perfectly XD;


Okay end rant. Off to watch the Japan show on Channel 8.

OSAKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.



OH JIN. AM I SUPPOSED TO RANT ABOUT HOW MUCH DORKY!LOVE JIN IS?

WELL. So today was the last lesson with Mr. Boatman until February when he comes back~ He finally taught me jazz :3 So anyway, it's going to be an 18hour flight and HE'S GONNA STOP IN TOKYO FOR 2 HOURS :3!! XD; Apparently he's flying to Los Angeles to visit one of his brothers, then he'll ship his drumset and his electronic keyboard AND HIS RECORDING EQUIPMENT HOMFG to Singapore. "Then after that's done I'll steal one of my brother's cars -he has two- and drive to Las Vegas". O: He's gonna visit a couple friend of his who just had a baby last year, then he'll drive back to L.A. then to Texas to visit his other two brothers and his sister and his mom. S'cool :3

"How many beats are there?"
"Five?"
"..."
"O_O."
"HAHAHA IF YOU SAID SIX I'D HAVE TO KILL YOU."

"Can you count the beats?"
"Yeah."
"._."
"O______________________O?"
"HAAAAAH!!!!!" <-- cue laughter. He was being so weird today. XD;

Anyway then I went to Starbucks at Bugis Junction to do my work. And well, have a cup of coffee. Then I went for my Japanese lesson. And omfg, I felt so out of place D: Everyone there looked from 18-30++ D: I'm the only fourteen year old. D: There was this other guy though, with his mom, I don't know how old he is. :/

Anyway my teacher's called Mr. Teo and he was asking us all if we were determined to learn Japanese properly and then asked us why we wanted to learn and stuff and everyone just stared at him and kept quiet. XD; ...I actually wonder if we're -supposed- to call him 'sensei' because in the other classes they do :/

After around fifteen to half an hour into the lesson he started talking about "baka". XDD He was saying most Singaporeans thought "baka" was a vulgar word O_O You want vulgar, go borrow that book I borrowed from the library to read. XD; And he went on to say that people say it differently and he was like, "In Osaka, they say 'ahou'". I was going to ask him if he'd teach us kansai-ben but he kinda just ranted on so I didn't get a chance to D:

Then towards the end of the lesson he started reading out names from the name list and he said that when he called our names we had to say something to him in Japanese, and I didn't know what to say. I was going to say "BAKA YORO" then Mamo in my head told me it was a bad idea. So I decided to say "shut up" or "you're an idiot" or "ore-sama no bigi ni yoi na" or "minna-san konbawa, Miyano Mamoru Guen Yik deeeeeeeeeees" and stuff but then when it was my turn I just suddenly forgot everything and Mamo in my head screamed "SUKI DA YO." so I just blurted out "SUKI DA YO."

The room fell silent for a few seconds before I realised what I had said and I was like "AAAAAA @___________@!!!!!" I almost started flailing but I managed to control myself 'COS IF I FLAILED THE PEOPLE ON MY LEFT AND RIGHT WOULD GET HIT DX *dies*

Though, he did say that we could say "ilu" or anything like that or just anything so yeah. *dies* But I was still so embarrassed. And after I said "SUKI DA YO." he explained the meaning of it and this older girl sitting behind said was like "AAAA SHE'S SO CUTE!!" omg >_> unlessIheardwrongly.

Then I heard someone's boyfriend telling this girl (don't know if it's the same girl) "SUKI DA YO." and she was like "-_- HAHA OMG WHATEVER." Then Mr. Teo started talking about "aishiteimasu" XD;

Someone wished him happy new year, many said "yoroshiku onegaishimaaaaaaaas" and many many more went "watashi wa ______ desu!" including the males. Which felt kinda weird because he didn't teach "boku" and well yeah :/

Then there was this guy, he was like "SORE WA KABE DESU!!" (That is a wall!!) and everyone burst out laughing. Another guy asked Mr. Teo his age and some guy at the back shouted "SECRET!!!" XD Mr. Teo was like "...atete mite kudasai :D"

When it was the lady sitting on my left's turn, she was like panicking. She ended up smiling and laughing very nervously so I tried to help her. I was very, very, very tempted to tell her "SENSEI KAKKOII NE!" then I decided not to. So I just told her "uhm just just. watashiwa _____ desu, yoroshiku onegaishimas!" but in the end she was still panicking so much I just told her "UHM. JUST. Watashi wa _____ desu!" and she panicked and stammered "Watashi wa _____ desuka" >_>;

Okay end long crappy post.


OMGOSH CROSSWITHYOU IS LOVELY *w*




XD;; I'm actually posting the panels which Rabi appear in panel by panel in order of the progression of the chapters XD;

I haven't blogged here in ages.

So anyway. School's horrid, and I became sick of it on the 3rd day of school. ): And the fact that the number of days I don't eat during recesses and lunches is increasing isn't really helping. D: I don't know how I'm going to survive the rest of the year.

Integrated Humanities sucks, have I mentioned that? I understand shit about nation-states. And I bet Mr. Han thought I was the IH rep -_- 'Cos on the second lesson, we had to go collect the notes, and I had to go too because I'm the freakin' trasherer treasurer but there were only two stacks. AND HOLY SHIT, CHEMISTRY NOTES COST AROUND $173.60. But not the point. So because there were only two stacks, the next IH lesson he walked in, stared at me, asked if the notes had been collected so I just shook my head and then he was like "Can you - *does the finger walk thing*" -______- Then afterwards he asked me if the groupings for the presentations were done -___-

So anyway. Today after school I was supposed to go up earlier to get the cameras, but we had to meet for our SIA proposal thingie, and then we tried to fill it up, but we ended up joking and laughing and rubbish and WOMG Rosalind kept bursting into fits of laughter which made us all laugh and in the end we laughed 'til our stomachs hurt badly D: If we do this everyday we can get aps! XD;

PING HUI'S MONITRESS. YAAAAAAAAAAAAY. *claps*


POKEGOE FIGHTO!

"MINNA SAN KONBAWA, PAKU ROMI DESU~"
"MINNA SAN KONBAWA! MIYANO MAMORU DES!"

POKEGOE IS LOVE. Mamo is just so adorablelovecute.

Pokegoe 3
Mamo, 20:23-20:14: "...Suki da yo."
Mamo, 20:53-20:54: "Suki da yo, de koto de."
(unless I heard wrongly, which I might because Mamo kills my brain. D:)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

AND LISTENING TO MAMO LAUGH USING MY HEADPHONES KILLS MY BRAIN. D:

MAMO ILU.

JA KEN PON!



NARIMIYAAAAAAAAAA! WHY YOU SO CUTE D:


ITADAKIMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS~


Anyway.

This, is Oguri.


AND THIS, IS OGURIXNARIMIYA. -No flaming, plzkthnx- I was drinking water when I saw this so naturally, I choked. Real bad. And I just went "O_________________________O!!!" Apparently it was for some play I think. NARIMIYA STOP CROSS-DRESSING ALREADY. Like how you did in Kindaichi. XD;

YOUSHOULD'VEBEENINPURIPURID. *bricked*



EDIT
I FORGOT TO POST RABI PICTURES. @_@ K SO NOW I OWE RABI 3 OF HIS PICTURES. @_@ ohnoes. I'll post in my livejournal when I finally move there. ;_;

I want to go to OBS, but I don't want the jab. Yes, I'm afraid of syringe needles used for injections, stfu already D:


WARNING, PICSPAM AHEAD.

IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR HONGO TO BE THIS OMGJFDPOAFHEWNFOAEWFA PRETTY. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT HE CAN LOOKS SO OMGDJKFKAJDFPWENFOAWEP PRETTY AND SO OMGKDJFOPAEWHIFVNAEWPIWQEUF DIFFERENT FROM THAT CINEPURI!BRATTY RYOMA HE ACTED AS D: andit'simpossiblethathe'sonly15,recentlyturned16D:

Observe.


IGNORETHISIJUSTWANTEDTOSTUFFKAJIHERE.


Cinepuri!Bratty Ryoma, quote "Daijoubu, senpai. *smirk*"


Cinepuri!Bratty Ryoma picking a fight. LOOKIT THE ATTITUDE. THE ATTITUDE ON HIS FACE.


Cinepuri!Bratty Ryoma smirking at the Messed-Up-His-Eastern-and-Western-Grip-Guy. I think this was the "mada mada dane." part.

THEN.

NANA2 Movie 12.9 Roadshow. IT'S FREAKIN' IMPOSSIBLE D:



THE LIP RING WOMG. Gaaah it's impossible. D:


Yes I'm going to stfu about Hongo now. Onto Narimiya.

Narimiya in NANA2 Movie 12.9 Roadshow. (HOMGTHECOLLAR8D)


Narimiya in Ima ai :3


Worried!Narimiya D:


...WHY YOU SO CUTE, NARIMIYA. 83 This was just one of the manymany cute faces he made but I was lazy to go through the other episodes >_>


Crying!Narimiya. MY HEART BROKE INTO SHARDS. Even though it was only a couple of seconds but omg it was so heart wrenching D:


D:


Sawajiri Erika! Because she pwns and she's from the same talent agency as Hongo. Idon'tbelieveshe'sonly20theymustbelying.


I'll post the 2 Rabi pictures in the next post >_>

MLX is fun, and MLX is pretty. It was simpler than I had expected but well yeah.

I was just watching Yilina program moving lights that day and then suddenly Chermaine/Shermaine HOW TO SPELL IDK came and was like asking "Guenyik, is guenyik here?" And I was like "O______________O? Uh yeah? *waves*" Then she stared at me and asked me if I was supposed to do lights and said that someone told her I'd be doing lights for the mini concert and that I wasn't up in the control room yesterday and I was all "O______________________O" But in the end I went up to do lights anyway. And Mr. Zuffri was calling me "granite" again -________- I realise he likes to twist people's names. Davina became "Ribena" and Mui Suan became omgIseriouslydon'tknowwhat-_-

So yesterday, I froze up in the control room for the 376578239154th time. No, Chenlili didn't get her moving lights, she got a red spot. And Modern Dance got flashing scrollers :/

Our show was teh prettyness :3 Mr. Ng brought the smoke in and WOMG IT WAS SUPER PRETTY. BECAUSE OF THE SMOKE YOU COULD SEE THE BEAMS OF LIGHT AND WHATNOT AND IT WAS OMGOSFOAWEBFWENFPA PRETTY. However, the smoke kinda suffocated the people on stage right and left and well, I bet it suffocated the people in the audience seats too. Plus it's some kind of chemical, too, and it stinks. Boy, was I glad I was upstairs and not downstairs.

And then afterwards during the CCA exhibition thing they set up the speakers and everything and no one had music so Mr. Kuo brought -his- music. Y'know, -his- type of music XD and we were like blasting it and I bet it was meant to drown out choir's voices. Anyway so yeah now we have 50+ secondary 1s waiting to be interviewed. OH IT'S GOING TO BE FUN >D

Yesterday we had our photo taking, and it was omgndfaopwenfaw. The guy was like "fringe. your fringe." and I started pushing my fringe back BUT IT FELL BACK TO THE FRONT ANYWAY and I think I stalled the rest for around 10 seconds or so and then he said that my hair was sticking out at the top AND FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT MY FEELERS CAME BACK TO HAUNT ME AGAIN D: Not that I don't like them, but no, no one wants to have feelers in their IC photo. And finally, when my fringe was acceptable, he was like "okay smile that smile again!" And yes, I ended up grinning retardedly *dies* Anyway, the photographer had a bounce card attached to his flash, but the flash still kind of blinded me anyway.


I'm late, but whatever. Happy 21st birthday, Teppei! :3 -insert heart-


NOW'S THE OPENING DAY OF AIR GEAR MUSICAL IN JAPAN. *cries* I NEEDWANTMUSTHAVETO FLY TO JAPAN NOWNOWNOW D:


RABI. Small, but heck, it's still Rabi.